I had a slow day. I went to class for an hour just to get a test back and go over it. It was kinda dumb cause I just sat there and went online. Iv cooked my mind studying for my psych exam tomorrow. psych is the one class I want to do good in. I realized the other day that I haven't gotten drunk in over a week. I have beer and everything, I don't know what's wrong with me, I need to get going on that.

(nate the sad indian)

Iv now been blogging for a solid 3 month. This is very suprising to me; I figured I would have done it for a couple of weeks then lost interest. Im glad I haven't, its allowed me to meet new and interesting people. The only way to really sum up 'fourty blocks' is that its about nothing in particular, and that's how I like it.

The first blog I ever read was matt good's, but not at the 'mblog'. I was reading it back when there was no 'mblog'. Back when it was at the 'nation of cool' website nearly three years ago. Then about a year ago I was at matt's blog and I saw the link for raymitheminx, Im not sure why but I went there. raymi's hilarious posts and awesome photography intrigued me.

I wanted to start a blog of my own, but I was never really in the mood to. Until I moved away form home and got bored. I said to myself "why the hell not, I have nothing else to do". So thus started fourty blocks

ahh yes, Tuesday. My light day. I both like and dislike my Tuesdays. If only I didn't have my dumb English 102 class today it would be great. Im done with class and home by 12:30 then I have the rest of the day to do what ever I want. Unfortunately, I have nothing to do...

My hunger for Chinese food went unfulfilled tonight, but I had the next best thing. Tacos!

Iv picked my next semesters classes, intro to philosophy, sociology, psychology 250 and calculus. Im really looking forward to all of them, but not calculus, cause math sucks.

This next semester will likely be my last one spent at home. Im planning on transferring and going to a 4 year college next fall. But I haven't chosen which one I want to go to yet. I still have lots of time to decide. Iv visited a college about a month ago and stayed in the drums. I fell like Im missing out on all the fun and experiences of college.

This summer I need to get another job. I was thinking about working at this bar I know of as a bartender. And I just so happens that Jake was there today and they are hiring, so Im going to stop in there and see if I can get a job.

Iv been in a good mood lately. I even had a physics test today that I think I did well on.

lately iv been craving Chinese food, I don't know why, but I haven't had any in a long time. So tonight I think that's what im going to do. Sit on my ass and go eat Chinese. Of all the foods out there, I would have to say Chinese is one of my favorites.

anyways... My good mood. There are a multitude of reasons why im in a good mood. First and for most, im usually in a good mood to start with, so that always helps. I do have my bad times though, some people tend to bring out the asshole in me and I become a jerk, but not often, and im never that bad.

there were times in high school were I was never in a good mood. I don't even remember why anymore. I went through a lot of changed in high school. I started out as a shy little kid who kept to himself. Later on some new friends busted my out of my shell and I became social. I partied, I drank, and I just had a lot of good times. Then, it went back to me keeping to myself, but this time it was a choice I made. I totally cut myself off from people and friends, I lived in my own little world. But doing this made me a keen observer of human behavior, I saw things and people in a different light. Because I didn't talk to people much, I ended up thinking way to much. I would analyze things and day dream all the time. An ill side effect of cutting people off was that it made me seem like an asshole, but then again, maybe I was, but not to everyone. This went on for nearly two years. Nearing the end of high school I started to back into a social life, it wasn't to tough (there were parties all the time).

I fell like that period of time where I was cut off in a way helped me out. I learned a lot about a lot. And now im different again, but in a good way; iv reconnected with people from my past and im really glad that I did.

wow, I just wrote a serious/personal post... that's fucked up! :)

do i need a haircut?

So lately iv been seriously looking into buying a new camera and I think iv decided on one. The Kodak V550. And now I even have the money situation under control. See at the moment I have quite a large chunk of money locked away for my tuition and I wont be able to access it until august. So to get the camera and not have to wait, iv got a credit card. So as soon as the credit card gets here, my camera will be soon to follow along with a ton of new pictures to be posted up here.

Going on a beer run while the roads are covered in snow isn't the greatest idea iv ever had. It took about 30 minutes to get across town and back to my house. It should have taken 10. I had Jake get me a 12 pack of MGD and a 6 of Mikes Hard lemonade [cause you have to get something for the ladies too :) ]

Iv been thinking a lot about who I am lately and iv come to a conclusion. Im nate; it was that simple, who ever I am, that's who I am. How ever I act, that's me to. If Im faking anything, well that's who I am at that moment, a faker. I tend not to fake things though, I don't feel real when I do.
sometimes I think way too much, about way too many things, stressing things. But no more, im done with stress, in the end things workout one way or another. When one thing goes bad, you have to put it behind you, sometimes it takes a while, sometimes it doesn't

Today I feel like sleeping a lot (but I know I wont). I want to sleep a lot cause I want it to be tomorrow sooner :) , and when Im asleep time seems to go much quicker.

fankly my dear, I don't give a rats ass...

tonight there is supposed to be a snow storm, so I don't know if I want to have a party tonight or not. I don't want to have a party.

anyways, I had a very eventful thanksgiving. I work up, I ate diner with my family and grandparents, then I went down stairs and watched That 70's Show and slept... fun time huh

'lets go at it like rabbits that just got out of prison'... ha

I think im having a party some time this weekend cause people came home for thanksgiving. The only problem is im short on cash for beer... im going to need to drop like $40 for some 30 packs, and im not going to cheap out and buy cheap beer, I don't roll like that!! Its a small price to pay for a good time with some old friends. Its weird, in high school I would never have parties, and now that im in college and I don't get to see people I know that often I really look forward to having parties and getting drunk with people I went to school with.

my room is still a mess. Jake and Andrea are not help with the situation. Andrea came over again last night, so once again the living room couch because my bed. If it would have been any other girl I wouldn't have let them have the room, but Andrea is cool shit, so I don't mind too much.

im watching the episode of 'That 70's Show' where they road trip to Canada to get beer. Now I really wanna go do that too...

A car just exploded about 200 feet away from my house. I guess there was no one in it. It looked awesome. I could hear the tires explode, I was able to get pretty close up until the fire trucks came...

I hurt from yesterday's little work out... Mostly my legs and stomach, that's all I was working on though, so it makes sense

I have an hour of class today and really really don't wanna drive to school to sit in physics and learn about thermodynamics... im a fucken geek, I mean really, thermodynamics, I don't give a fuck about that...

I think I hit a mid-life crisis at 18, today I worked out... FOR NO REASON!
class today was a total drag, I was so fucken tired.
attempting to go to bed earlier then 11 it harder then I thought it would be. im always preoccupied with something else. For the last month iv been getting less then 5 hours of sleep a night. And soon, I will die...

the other day I was at the bank doing some bank shit in the drive through and when was done the lady said "have a good turkey day" and for some reason that just totally annoyed the shit outa me! I wanted to get in her face and be all "ITS FUCKEN THANKSGIVING...THANKSGIVING!! NOT TURKEY DAY YOU DUMBASS!!" but didn't... I just looked at her and drove off

My room is a pigsty at the moment, but I have no one to clean it for, not for a week at least. I found out today that Andrea spilled beer in my bed... MY FUCKEN BED!! damn... I feel like a slob, there is junk all over my computer desk. Ill eventually clean it up...

im not in to much of a mood to type a long interesting post, then again none of my posts are long or interesting, so I guess this is not much of a change.

I got paid Friday, and now im down to $20, I don't know where all my money went to, I didn't even buy beer this weekend...

im not sure what im going to do about alcohol when Jake leaves for California, im thinking about saving up about $300 and having him by me a whole bunch just before he goes.

I went out to the bar Friday night with my folks, Jake and Andrea. I actually got drunk out in public. Now for many of those of you reading this, im sure your thinking 'so fucken what? I do that all the time' but for me its different. I live in the US and because we have our shit fuck up here, the drinking age is 21. So to get smashed out in public was a new thing for me.

I hadn't planned on getting drunk, I had to be up at 4:30 Saturday morning to make it to work. Regardless I made it to work on time with a nice-sized hangover to top off a great night of beer drinking

last night I went out to see the new Harry Potter movie with some friends. im not really a big fan and if never so much as touched a Harry Potter book, but it was actually a good movie. People died in it, it had its dark moments, and thats what I like to see in a movie made for kids...

I thought I was coming down with the bird flu but it turns out I was just hung-over

I know. Your asking yourself, 'how does nate do it?'

I just do, what can I say? im gifted...

respek

im being kicked out of my room this weekend so jake and andrea can have their "alone" time. jake is lucky im such an awesome brother!
He bought me beer, so its the least I could do.

Edit: take a close look at the fifth picture.

Clay and I were walking home from subway the other night and we heard this little kitten. We really wanted to find it, but it was way too dark to see, so of course I took a picture. I didn't see that the kitten was right in front of our faces until the other night... weirdI felt totally uncreative today, so iv posted some pictures; some new, some old...

It's snowing for the first time this winter... FUCK! I hate the snow... I cold im ok with, cold I can stand. But there is just something about snow I cant stand. I think it all started when first started to drive, the first winter I had my car I was in a snow related accident, and now I have no eyes.... ok that's a lie, I still have my eyes, but I did a grand worth of damage on my car... FUCKING SNOW!!

I just received That 70s Show season three, kick fuckin' ass!





I have to work all weekend so no drunken adventures for me... But then again, it wouldn't be the first time I went to work hung over.
I once went to work totally hung over from a night of watching The Big Lebouski while drinking beer, white russians, and peppermint schnapps. I got though most of the time just fine... until I threw up right in front of my boss... He just laughed and asked me if I had a good night... My boss kicks ass!

If you have ever heard of Ali G or Borat, im sure you will find this amusing.

Clay just came down stairs and asked me about my 'near awkward moment' I had this weekend.

"If I wanted you to know what it was I would have FUCKING SAID IT!!" was my response.

Like I need him knowing about it. I don't care if others know, because iv told others about it. Not that its a big deal, it's just that I don't need my younger brother knowing every little thing that I do.
I love my brothers, they are like friends to me, but not the kind of friends you tell everything to...

Jake will be gone all week at a job site so I have the basement all to myself until Friday, and im definitely going to be taking advantage of that! Yesterday I set up the door so it is completely closed off and no one can see in. I had a near awkward moment with that this weekend so iv out a stop to it. But that's a long story, and it isn't what you think it might be.

I wrote this about two years ago, and earlier today I first went back and reread it. I was really stupid back then, not that much has changed now. But I used to get depressed, then again what teenager doesn't. I look back on what I wrote and how I felt and I see how stupid I really was. I never get depressed anymore, there never is a reason to. Bad thing happen, and that's that. There is never any reason to be depressed, especially about things that happened in the past. Things that have already happened cant be changed... So why dwell on them? My advice to anyone who reads this is to never let yourself get depressed, cause where is the fun in that?

I never made it to the record release party last night. Other things came up. Regardless I woke up with a massive headache this morning. I finished off my first 40oz. and felt very accomplished. There is one more 40 in the fridg and two beers left. Turns out I drank a little more then I thought last night.

when I got up I went out to a small diner to meet up with a friend and see someone I haven't seen in a long time. Iv been like that lately. Iv been trying to reconnect with old friends. So far its been a good thing.

the worst idea I had was going to watch clay bowl earlier today, the noise was killing me

I just woke up from a 40 minute nap I took here at school. I just couldn't help myself, I sat down on an incredibly comfortable chair and was out like a light. no one bothered to wake me up, the just all walked past.

Jake and I watched primetime last night about this guy who called up fast food places and had managers call young girls into their offices and have them take their close off and do fucked up shit. it really pissed me off. One of the worse cases was in a Mcdonalds...read about it here. I couldn't believe how stupid some people could be to follow such orders over the phone like they were.

when did fast food lose the fast? Today I was fucking starving and had an hour to kill before my lab. sooo being nate I went to taco bell... and FUCK! it was packed, I was not about to wait 20 minutes for a grilled stuffed burrito and a small drink... so I went across the street to dairy queen and walked in, there was a line of about 20 kids waiting to order, THEN I went to wendy's and holy shit.. that was packed too. what the fuck is this everyone and their mother was out looking to get a fast food fix. after half an hour I ended up at burger king where I finally got some food!

today I found out that there is a megatouch machine at school... I now found my new favorite thing to do between classes

so for my physics lab today I played some megatouch and air hockey with a girl in my class... im glad I paid $2200 for that...

The three most basic human drives are food, sleep, and sex.

I don't eat right, I get very little sleep, and im not getting any.

Why am I not dead yet?

damn girl! You were made for the camera! :)

This in my friend Kindra, and she is awesome. She came to my little get together last weekend and was disappointed that I didn't post her picture. im sorry Kindra, it was a really dark picture cause I was too drunk to remember I needed to use the flash. So I edited it and made it better. It turned out great!

I had a test today that really stressed me out, physics. It fucking sucked hardcore!!! so I went on a walk to blow off some steam and now im cool... still kinda pissed, but there's no point in being upset in something in the past.
whats done is done, now move on...

I maybe be going to a record release party in Madison this Friday for dafino, so thats something to look forward to... other then that, this weekend maybe be less eventful then the last one... but ill find something

lunch today came from the walmart food court... it was gross, but cheap. then again thats how everything is at walmart

damn! I haven't had a weekend like this one in a long time. my drunken' adventure started Friday afternoon and ended just now. I wasn't drunk the whole time of course, but both Friday and Saturday night were great. I actually had a party here at my place and im now all out of alcohol. I got to see and catch up with people who I haven't seen or talked to sense graduation. I woke up this morning with a headache that could kill a horse. It was a much needed good time. Friday I even went out to a porn shop while I was trashed, I didn't get anything though cause it was all like $40... That's way to much for porn if you ask me...

im definitely going to be having weekends like this more often.

this afternoon I was awaken from my post-drunken' slumber so I could ride along with Jake and Andrea to Milwaukee so we could pick up brad who is now back from California

Last night was a great night. We went out and got nice and drunk then I spent the night in the girls dorm, what could be better then that? I took pictures, but only with my phone, but its still nice. And I got a nice dancing lesson. im definitely going to be doing this much more often, in fact im going out to do it again tonight. The best part is that I didn't even get around to drinking my stuff, we went out to a party and paid $5 for a 'bottomless' cup. Needless to say I took advantage of that!

these are my friends sarah and ryan and the
two girls I met last night, sammy and amber

easy day for nate. i had 45 minutes of class today and slept the rest of the time. tonight im going away to visit a friend and get drunk and do stupid things while inebriated... yes inebriated.

ill be sure to write all about it saturday night, but ill probably be drunk then too... i got a lot of beer and other liquid goods... those of you who know me (and even if you dont) and wanna get together and drink this weekend leave me a comment or call me

im out

I went to see saw II tonight, and I have to admit it was pretty good, and scary. I haven't even seen saw 1 but II still made sense to me...

im really looking forward to this weekend, I just picked up all the supplies im going to need for a drunken adventure

this picture makes me feel like im a rock star

well I didn't win the lottery again, but it'll happen. jake just got home from his heart procedure and all they did to him was cut a hole next to his 'junk' and found out that they couldn't fix the problem that way... so he paid $300 for nothing... shit... but he does get off work the rest of the week, so that's something I guess.

I found these sunglasses in my room, and I have no idea who they belong to. they look like they belong to a girl, but neither jake or I know who... so maybe ill keep them. you have to admit, I look good in them!

great... I just had this nice long entry all typed up and I lost it... FUCK! so ill try it again

this morning I was rudely awakened at 4 by jake who had to go in for his heart operation, it didn't really matter I guess seeing is that I had to get up at 4:30 to go to work anyway, but when you sleep as little as I do, 30 minutes is a lot. Unfortunately today I AM wearing underwear... I found a clean pair... But I still have no clue where all the other went off to.

im looking into getting a new digital camera, but don't know really what to look for. right now I found the one I think I wanna get, the Kodak V550 or V530 (they are damn near the same thing), but im not too sure yet. so if anyone has any camera input for me, it would be very welcomed.

its kats birthday today.... happy birthday katrina

(ps, if anyone knows the location of my missing underwear, id really like to know where they are... thanks)

When I got out of the shower this morning I couldn't find any underwear, thus I ended up walking around naked for a while. There was no one else home, so it didn't really matter. I also went to class underwearless, and I think ill make a habit out of it. Not wearing underwear was just so much more comfortable I don't know why I ever did. Now,,, some people think that not wearing underwear is somewhat gross, and maybe they are right, but I really don't care. Even as I type I sit here completely free of underwear, sorry though, no pictures of me walking around naked... yet!

i just got in from going to subway and renting starwars epIII, even though im getting it tomorrow, i had to see it today...