Wednesday, November 29, 2006

two to go

There are a couple girls sitting behind me in the computer lab right now and they are annoying the fuck out of me!!!



My stress level is raising by the minute and it will continue to do so until I'm done with my presentation tomorrow.

I'm no good at preparing for this type of thing. If I over prepare I'm just going to fuck it up, end up stuttering, and turning bright red. I need to just let it flow and not over think it.
Just three more weeks of classes then I get a nice long 5 week winter break. I can already see the light at the end of the tunnel and it looks fucking gorgeous.

Two months until I move... two more long fucking months...

Monday, November 27, 2006

Speak truth

I thought that id bring back some nekkidness...

The whole
Half Nekkid Thursday thing wasn't really working for me seeing is that my post are becoming further apart

There isn't much guarantee that I'll have time to post on Thursdays so my nekkidness will have to come at random.

Currently I'm a bit stressed out. I have to give a presentation Thursday and I'm no where near prepared for it. on the other hand, I do some of my best work under stress and things tend to work out.
The presentation I'm going it on a South African man Abubacar Sultan.
Here is something that he said in an interview, something that I will be reading as a part of my presentation.
"One particular seven-year-old boy who had been kidnapped changed my life. When I arrived at this orphanage, he was completely withdrawn from the world. He would be calm one day and cry continuously the next. Finally he started speaking. He said he was living with his family, when a group of rebel soldiers woke him up at night, beat him, and forced him to set fire to the hut where his parents were living. And when his family tried to escape from the hut, they were shot in front of him and then cut into pieces. I will never forget his feelings, because I kind of went inside him and he shared with me the worst moments of his life. The images, the bad images I had from my childhood of small things that hurt me, all came alive. And sometimes I tried to put myself into his position and tried to live his experience. His was just one story among many others."

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Lighting is key

I heard an all to familiar sound.
I looked to my left just in time to see the cat vomiting on the floor.
Thanks kitty...

I followed
through with the "Buy Nothing Day" thing. Not because I want to fuck shit up or be a rebel or stick it to the man or whatever but mostly because I'm poor.

Even with the long weekend I managed to get nothing done.

Thursday I have a presentation to do for my sociology class, Iv had about 2 months now to get it in order.

I think I'll start on it tomorrow...

Thursday, November 23, 2006


Monday, November 20, 2006

no shit eh?

I think the reason that I cant think of anything to post lately is because I'm bored a lot. There is no real excitement in my life.
Last Friday night i went to bed at nine o'clock... NINE!! I'm almost 20 years old i shouldn't be going to be that early on a Friday night...
I mean come on!
I should be going out and having fun, seeing people, getting laid.
Saturday night was no different.

It's been nearly three weeks since my last cigarette.

Walking by those who are inhaling the sweet sweet cancerous smoke makes me wanna run out and buy a pack.


Friday, November 17, 2006

Inquire within

People who make their msn names personal annoy me. if you don't want to talk about what your name means then don't fucking put it out there for people to ask about.

Example: last night i saw that a not-really-friend has her name as "alone again, naturally..." so, being annoyed, bored, and bitter i reacted "stop bitching about being alone... fuck!!"

Having a msn name is that a real name is fine, inside jokes are somewhat acceptable as well as song lyrics, but personal shit that you don't want to explain isn't fine... not fine at all.

Yesterday afternoons trip to my soon to be new college was as to be expected. My classes are all picked... business, economy, physics... and some others. my student adviser was about 3'5" tall. i like short people... some times.

The campus itself is a bit intimidating. the student population alone is about 3 time that of the whole city i live in now. it's the third largest college in Wisconsin which is quite large. not only that but it has a alcohol problem (who doesn't).

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

A better way

Tomorrow I will be driving up to my new college to do some class registration stuff. I'm thinking that I'll take my camera along and walk around the campus for a while. The drive up there takes little over an hour so I'll be spending far too much time and energy in my car tomorrow.

I'm not even sure how to get there. Iv been there
before but its been a while.

Any minute my now iPod's battery will cry out in pain as it loses all of its charge and dies a horrible death until i plug it in and comes back to life with a glow and a smile... or at least a glow.

I received an email from my little Thai sister, Gift, yesterday. She's going to be going to college here in Wisconsin. Not to the one I will be attending unfortunately but the one she's going to isn't far from where I'll be moving. Iv missed her.

Monday, November 13, 2006

No rights reserved

I'm listening to music way to fucking loud right now.

Due to my recent
time to get in-shape attitude my arms legs and stomach are killing me. My arms are so tired and wore out that they hurt to move.
I really don't have much to say lately. my writers block is back. There are things i want to write about but i cant think right now...

I must say, blogger beta isn't really all that bad, but I still need to get used to it a bit more.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

you make me feel like hips

Iv switched to Blogger Beta and so far I haven't noticed any differences. they must be subtle...

Yesterday was our first snowfall of the season. Also, it was the first Nate-got-his-car-stuck-in-the-ditch of the winter season.

I wasn't even going fast but it happened. took me five minutes to rock it back and forth enough to get it out. Did any of the passing cars stop to help? no... I tried to think of who i could blame for this event and got pissed when i realized that it was all me (and the snow of course).
The following is a list of things that I'm good at:

the end... time to explore what 'beta' can all do

Thursday, November 09, 2006

I quit

Iv been thinking about my next vacation and how I wont have any money to go on it.

What my thoughts are, as of now, that I'll take a week off work (where ever I end up getting a job) and drive somewhere. Now that my car is all fixed up I feel a bit more comfortable taking it out of the state/country. Im thinking that I may drive to Toronto next August... but its still up for debate.

I have to tell my boss about my transfer by this time next week. There is an advisory meeting I'll need to attend so that means I'll off work and ill most likely have to tell my boss why.

"hey boss guess what!! im quitting!!"

I'll try and make it not sound like that.

"knock knock"

who's there?

"im quitting..."

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Untitled 4

It was really nice out today and for a while I had regrets about quitting smoking. I was tempted to go to the gas station and pick up a pack but I resisted.

I didn't vote yesterday. Id like to say it's because I didn't have time, which I didn't, but that's not really true. The truth is that 1) I wasn't sure who to vote for and 2) I didn't really care.

After checking what the results were I saw that the people I probably would have voted for got re-elected. There is also the approval of a constitutional amendment stating that marriage be between a man and a woman... Sorry gays, looks like you'll all have to go to California...

I will officially be moving on January 28, that's the earliest they will let people move into the dorms. I still don't know what building I'll be in or who my roommate will be. Apparently they don't tell us until a week before the move.

11 more weeks and I'll be outa here!

Monday, November 06, 2006

The laws of science be a harsh mistress

I keep having dreams about being in TV shows. Lately they have been about me being a character on Lost and The Office. I think need to start watching less television...

Well, for the second time now Iv quit smoking. Not because its bad for me but because it's getting way to cold to go outside and stand around with a cigarette in my hand.

So now that im no longer smoking Iv even started exercising again. If im gonna be going to a much bigger college and living around women my age I should try and be in-shape and not unattractive.
I have to opportunity to vote tomorrow for what-ever-the-fuck we're supposed to vote for.

All iv been hearing on TV and the radio is the debate whether or not to allow gays to be married or whether or not to change the constitution to make it so they cant ( something like that). I don't really care one way or another.

Also according the TV commercials all politicians are evil... Like I needed the TV to tell me that.

Im not sure yet whether or not im going to vote. I haven't registered yet and I don't really have any time tomorrow to make it to city hall. My day will start at 5 in the morning and end at 7ish at night.

rock the vote? fuck the vote?

Thursday, November 02, 2006



Ok that's better. I just got back from taking it in... That was a chore, it wouldn't go over 30mph and it kept shutting off.

At times like these I just think to myself "
it happened, there is nothing I can do to change that so don't dwell on it and cheer the fuck up". Some times thinking this works and I feel a bit better, some times it doesn't.
It's cold today, damn cold. If it weren't for a test I have to take today I would spend the day here wrapped up in my bed listening to music at a safe distance away from the below freezing wind outside.

FOAD Thursday

It's been a bit of a depressing Thursday so there will be no half-nakkedidity. My apologies.

But I will make this a Fuck off and Die Thursday; and I'll dedicate it to my car.

I just got back from spending over $700 fixing my car's loud muffler problem. There is still the matter with my transmition to take care of. I was planning on getting a new computer before I moved out... But it looks as though that will not be happening in the near future.

Couples at school get on my nerves. Maybe its because im a bit bitter about relationships or because im jealous of the happiness of others but when I see a couple at school kissing or holding each other I was to push them over or slam them into themselves.

It's as if they are showing off. I hate a showoff.

Couples that walk through the halls holding hands look so pathetic, almost like they are faking it. Stiff arms and awkward strides just doesn't appeal to the eyes.

I do like to see couples fight. It adds a bit of realism into my world.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006


My car magically started working again... But I can tell that something is still a bit off.

I got 9 hours of sleep last night. I cant even remember the last time that happened, but it felt great. Going to be at 7 might make me a loser but I don't care. I feel refreshed and even a bit less depressed.
The thought that I'll be moving in less than three months is the only thing holding my sanity together these days.

I wish I had more photos to post... Iv sorta been scrapping the bottom of the barrel lately.