Friday, January 25, 2008

Oh no, thank you

I think I get writers block when I sit down to blog simply because there is so much to be said lately.

The other night I went and saw Juno with one of the neighbor girls. I'm not a movie critic so all I'll say is that I thought it was a great movie and totally worth seeing.
9 months of working at the club and they've already given me keys to the place. This was cause for some dispute between some of the other workers who have been there a hell of a lot longer than I and have nothing to show for it.

If I weren't in a rush to get to work right now I would continue on.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Saline tea

It has been roughly 2 weeks now since I've quit smoking. It'll take a tremendous amount of willpower not to smoke when I'm out at the bars drinking but I'm confident it can be done.

Three times this weekend I was involved in confrontations at the night club I work at. I've become very adept at doing my job and dealing with unruly customers but normally they are intoxicated when I do and can't be fully to blame for the way they act. It's when I have to deal with sober customers that I get in the most trouble and cops get involved. I'm not the biggest guy working there so when I have to deal with people they think getting in my face will intimate me, but I never back down and I don't give them an inch. I started wearing a tie to work until I found out that not only does it make me look good but it also acts as a convenient noose.

January has been a good month for me. I'm happier and more relaxed than I have been in a very long time. I'm always busy or at least occupied by something or someone lately which explains my lack of blogging. It's a little more than a week until my 21st and I took a couple days off work in preparation.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Change of season

I feel renewed; at ease. I'm the zen master. New prospects new goals, some less noble than others.

I've broken some rules of blogging. People who I know in my day to day life still come and read what little I have to write these past few weeks and it's been a cause for me to edit myself. Many new developments and stories go untold, but it's probably for the best. Thoughts of the new people in my life are on my mind more and more and even my dreams don't cause me to wake up feeling as though I've been kicked in the gut. People have been surprising me as well as disappointing me.

Life has been a pattern and I feel like I've broken it, it's liberating.

Friday, January 04, 2008

We do it to ourselves

08 started with me getting covertly drunk at work. Senior bar staff was slipping me drinks in red bull cans and giving me the occasional shot when I would come around to their bars. At the end of the night we were all told we were allowed two drinks but I was already so drunk I only took one.

Tonight one of the senior bartenders is getting fired for stealing from the bar and her coworkers tips. She has been there for over 12 years so I'm anxious to see how it goes. Her cousin who also works there will likely be leaving alone with her and this is very good news to me. With two of our bartenders leaving and one of them being senior staff I'll be put in their place and be back behind the bar again where the real money is.

07 was a slow year for blogging. I got caught up in a low of things, was away from the internet for months at a time, and really just didn't feel like writing a lot of the time. whether or not 08 is going to be any different in those terms I have no idea. I have a good feeling about 08. 07 was a up and down game. I started low, hit the highest high I've ever been, then came crashing down. If I could just find a nice constant I'd be happy.