Lots of good things came out of Christmas this year. First off, the reason for the joy I mentioned in the last post. My brother Jake is getting married. Second, I'll likely be flying out of Las Vagas in February to attend his bachelor party.

Seeds

Good things are happening and I'm happy. Normally the Christmas season depresses me but not right now. Unfortunately I'm unable to disclose the nature of my joy for now.

The weather this weekend was shit and I wasn't able to make it into work last night, but I went anyways. My roommates and neighbors are all home for the holidays, so I've got a slight case of cabin fever. Later in the night the weather had cleared up so I went into work anyways, fortunately they no longer required my services; the shitty weather kept the crowd down to reasonable number. So instead of working I danced and shot pool for a few hours. It was strange being at work and not working.
I went up into the north woods for a family christmas this weekend as well. I love this side of the family. After eating and socializing the real fun began when a bunch of my aunts uncles and cousins (and Gift, Clay, and I) went out to the bars to dance, play darts/pool, and of course get shit faced.

Merry Christmas.

A watery grave

I had a hard time falling asleep last night. I've been getting up early for work lately so my sleep schedule is all out of wack.
A little about me:

• I would rather drown than die in a fire.
• I think I talk a lot when I'm really just talking to myself in my head.
• I would like to trade places with someone who was born def just to understand how they think. Same goes for someone born blind.
• Some times I'll stand out side of class with a cigarette and just observe people doing what they do.
• I want super powers.
• When I was young I didn't like having birthday parties cause I didn't like being the center of attention.
• If I knew I had a week to live (or any set amount of time) I wouldn't tell anyone, not even my family.
• I have over 100 DVDs and never know what I want to watch.
• My own future doesn't concern me, but the futures of those whom I love do.
• I could care less about global warming
• I don't illegally download music from artists I truly enjoy.
• Some times I go to work just so I'm not sitting alone in my apartment.
• I never know what I want for christmas.
• I would take a bullet for my brothers.
• When I was young I had horrible buyers remorse after buying a yo-yo.
• Once a year for about four months I'll starting playing the guitar, get good at it, then stop.
• I don't know where this list is going, but it's time for me to go to work so I'll have to do more later.
  

Its been information overload lately. I spend a lot of time thinking, even though I never have anything interesting to say. Too many things happening at once, some personal some not. But overall life had been good lately.

I called in sick friday night. It was a half lie. I did have a little bit of a cough, but more importantly I had a keg and large amount of wap sitting in my kitchen. Plus it's very rare that both my roommates and the girls next door are home.

Around midnight they all decided to head out to the bars. I went along with a borrowed ID that looked at least a small bit like me. Fortunately there was no one at the door at the moment so I just walked in and quick got a beer before their door guy came back. I drank and smoked like a chimney with good friends. I was glad they convinced me to call in.

Yesterday I went home for a family Christmas for my dad's side of the family. It went as they normally do, the Lloyd and I hung out with each other and ignored our cousins. I forgot my camera at home...

doing alcohol

*phone rings*

I - "Hello?"

Phone - "Hey it's Derek. Did you know that our final is today?"

I - "Ummm no, it's always been Thursdays."

Phone - "Yea, not this one."

I - "fuck... thanks..."

*hangs up phone*

I had about 45 minutes to shower and study which included reading a book that I was only one chapter into. When I woke up this morning I thought I had a whole day off class to study and read. Oh well, I didn't stress over it, when you stress you only hurt yourself.

Also, I found out that I still needed to attend one more Spanish lab. Because we just had our last test I'm sitting in here blogging and watching LOST on my iPod instead of listening to the worlds most monotone voice speaking Spanish over sub-par headphones.

The bitters

It's the things I decided not to do that make me feel like an adult. I don't want to fall back into old bad habits, I have enough current ones.

Yesterday was my interview for the higher position at work, I believe I did alright. I would feel bad to get the job other the other two guys interviewing for the position. Both a good workers and have been there a lot longer than I have. Although I didn't slack off in the interview cause if I get the job then I'll be able to take more weekends off.

I seem to be one of the few people who isn't to concerned about finals week. I don't have any big projects or papers to write, just a few exams that I'm reasonably prepared for. One of my roommates has literally slept 8 hour in the last 4 days and is on the brink of a breakdown.

Last night I went to see Pablo Fransisco on campus. When I first heard he was coming I thought he was some sort of Spanish musician.

My mind has been cluttered and my moods sporadic lately. One minute I'm happy and at the top of the world and the next I'm totally bummed out. I'm continuously grateful for the friends I've made at my new place. Without my roommates, my neighbors and my coworkers I would spend all my time in my room watching TV and daydreaming about being away from here. I can't remember when I actually watched TV. I haven't even played world of warcraft in almost a month.

I got the newest Matthew Good album this week. I know it's not really new and that it came out over the summer but it's new to me. I've been doing what I do when I get new music, I listen to it all the time, probably for about a month, then move on to something else.

I love sound. The purity, the mechanics, the creations, then endless possibilities, all of it. Because of this I rarely walk to school (or anywhere) while listening to my iPod. There is something that is very relaxing about just listening to all the sounds that constantly surround us. Our minds have filters that tone out a lot of background noise but when want to you can peel these filters away and hear everything around you. The wind, the zipper dangling on my jacket, my footsteps, a passing car, my own breathing, etc.